Getting ready

I can tell I’m procrastinating when cleaning the crusty saucepan that’s been soaking in the sink for a day seems a more attractive proposition than snapping on my gloves, turning on the hot plate and starting printing my edition! But tomorrow I shall have no more excuses as I’ve torn all the paper, sorted out blotters and boards and tissue and dabbers and those little bits of card I use to put the ink on the plate. I’ve cleaned my work surfaces, put fresh water in the paper bath, mixed the ink and pulled the blankets into place on the press. All that remains to do is to make the damned prints, and it’s the 50-odd hours of work in completing the whole edition that’s bugging me, because I’m essentially a lazy creature and think that it sounds too much like hard work!

I had a lovely meet-up with Jan Allsop in a delightful coffee shop called ‘Cocoa’ on Friday, and how nice it is to re-connect with someone you haven’t seen for ages but whom you suspect sees the world in much the same way that you do! We talked about all sorts of things, but in the end the conversational topic I keep grappling with, because it is at the core of my existence as an artist and many other things as well, is how to position my practice centrally when that seems to entail just the sort of selfishness that makes me feel uncomfortable, and which my mother told me wasn’t anything to do with being a woman. I was brought up to do everything on the ‘needs doing’ list first, and if there was any time left once all the chores had been done then I might – if I’d been good – be allowed to do something for myself for a change. And I struggle with myself daily, usually because I don’t realise that this is exactly what I’m doing, all too well! And then I find that I’m spending all my spare time moaning about not having enough time to do anything because of all the chores and I slip into being just the sort of boring person I can’t stand…

So I’m trying really hard to stop myself, and came to the major decision that I’m going to reduce the amount of ironing and other disagreeable activities that I do, and try hard to do/make/enjoy some more art instead. Hoorah! Now that has been established so easily I’m going to procrastinate my way to bed.

One thought on “Getting ready

  1. Oh, somehow I missed this post! I had a lovely time at Cocoa with you! I came home feeling like I had spent time with someone who sees the world rather like I do and that is always a wonderful experience, albeit rare. Looking forward to the completion of you edition so we can do it again!

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